Have you ever fell so hard in love and actually thought you were going to end up with this person and then had it ripped right up from underneath you? It's nearly impossible to forget, and it's impossible to forget your very first true love. It's very hard to get people to understand the situation because love is something that truly is indescribable and unless you've fallen for someone just as hard you will never understand. So, I'm going into my senior year of high school. I've chosen to be one of the members of the class of 2010 to graduate high school early, in January. I don't receive my diploma until everyone else does in June but I don't have to attend classes after January. The reasoning for this is because I want to get a head start on my life, I would like to work January-June full time and make a lot of money so I can be satisfied with the amount so I can be on my own. This all has a point but I'm not really sure how to begin. I had a talk with my mom and stepdad over dinner a few months back."Your at the age where you shouldn't be dating for fun you should start looking for someone to be with, not the exact person but the kind of guy you want," they explained to me, "when your twenty is when you should be looking for someone, and when your twenty five and dating someone you should know that their the one." Since those words came out of their mouths i've thought so hard to myself on what I'm doing with my life. I've gotten as far as I want to move to Florida, live on the beach, and become a great photographer. But, I also think about where I will be, who I will be with. I'm two and a half years away from being twenty, the age my parents told me when I should start looking. Since that is not a very long time away I decided to begin now.
I decided to become very particular when dating someone, because the last thing I want is to end up with the wrong person. People say just because you have someone there that cares about you more then anything that your alright. Well, I can honestly say I am very far from that stage. I'm closer to being happy then I was a few months ago but I could totally be happier. I just wish there was this button where I could push it when I met a boy and it would tell me if I was going to get hurt or it was going to work. Let me tell you something that happened at the beach. One night I wasn't feeling so hot so Danielle and I went onto the beach at night and sat there and talked for at least a good hour about love, God, death, happiness, we pretty much covered everything and she said to me, "nothing lasts forever." I said to her, "hows that? Marriage can last forever" and she said, "someone always dies before the other." She was absolutely correct, nothing lasts forever. Your always going to get hurt, no matter what the situation is. All I'm going to say is the day for me to find the one will come, and I will make sure he's the right one.
